imaginating.reality

DAMN distance

2009-11-08T00:50:00.001-08:00

long distance..

we have the commitment to share everything, although we meet only once a month, two months or three months. communication is the best way to make everything runs perfectly. sometimes I imagine about how we spend time together right here at Bandung, when he paid a visit 9months ago. i was so happy and felt one month still too fast to be with him.

we still try to be patient, nobody is wrong, and u can't blame the situation. it's just too complicated for each other. I can't be there and so can't him. patience is boring u know. sometimes I think good communication or anything behind them are just kinda stupid theories cause u can do nothing and still miss each other too much. shit, but only presence is the answer. sometimes I want to be such an egoistic person to insist him to be here, but I know it's not fair and I'm not that kinda person. as I said, we chose this situation cause we love each other and u always need sacrifices.

Missing someone is supposed to be easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will

miss u so much Ko An2, it's so hard but I believe we can through it all very well, and the perfect time will soon come then we become inseparable:)

j*z

confession of a broken heart

2009-10-19T17:45:00.000-07:00

We've been through 9 months.
I can feel our love is keep growing and facing another stage of a relationship.
One task is done and another to go.
Maybe this is the time to tell him the true version about my past.
I told him anything and always try to be honest.
But there's one thing, one secret I always keep within myself and I swore I would't tell anybody, only God knows.
It's bad, really bad. I never get ready to tell anyone but it’s time.
If I’m sure he loves me so much, I know this won’t be such a big deal..

After gathering all my courage, I decided that day would be the day I told him. I realised he's dissapointed, didn’t know it’s a lil bit or a deep one. But he’s not angry and said it won’t decrease his love for me and thank me for being so honest.

I feel really good.. Thanks God I already did it. Thanks to my boy, you’re so amazing, honey. I always love u more though miss u more from here.

it also reminds me about one theory of cost accounting 'relevant cost'. it helps management to make a strategic decision. we don't consider any cost related to the past, cause it's not relevant for our decision, will make a wrong decision. we can't change what happen in the past. only if they have impact to the future will count.

*j3z*

7month

2009-09-02T04:18:00.000-07:00

For someone special,
who has made all the differences in my life

you are different from anyone i have ever met before
and maybe it is in the way your eyes laugh so clearly

or maybe it has something to do with the warmth in your heart

i have never known anyone who understand and care the way you do,
i have been through changes, both good and bad.hahaa..
you know how to repair my sleeptime,
how to forget my fave food pizza -.- (how dare you???)
and how to treat my family and friends more special

you have a great gift and that gift is yourself
i would like to thank you for choosing to share your gift with me
and although nobody may be able to change the world,
i want you to know that you have made a significant differences in my life

i love u so much, dear..
i know this time i really do:)

25things about Jessy

2009-03-20T02:42:00.000-07:00

since i'm not interested in "facebook tagging things", I'm just stealing that idea to write down 25 facts about myself. enjoy:)

1. I have one older brother and sister , and I always dissent my mom's offering to have another little sister since I was a kid. I just don't want to, baby is not cute, NOT at all.

2. I dream a lot about future and career, but if you want to know, I really want to be a perfect housewife and infallible mom for my kids ( fyi, I never watch desperate housewife series).

3. I don't over-concern about my appearance, but only small part of it, my weight:)

4. I'm 65% choleric and 30% melancholic. still undertaking to attenuate the dominant one.

5. I was born and am living in Indonesia. You can say She's one of the nastiest place on earth, yet I still love Her very much.

6. What is the coolest job ever? I think becoming a fireman, teacher, pilot or auditor is so much impressive.

7. I can't drink soda. I never drink cola the right way in my entire life. It feels like super dirty river water with extra gravels stream down through my throat.

8. I love writing poems, singing, playing musical instruments, acting (in school). I love art.

9. I learn some musical instruments. I can play organ, keyboard and drum. I like bass-guitar, but don't have desire to learn. I learned guitar with my brother once, but only can play one song. It's "Best I ever had by Vertical Horizon". After that, I quit. Guitar is damn boring.

10. I sufferred anorexia nervosa 4 years ago. And proudly said, I'm the healthiest living woman for now.

11. I love staying at home (If I said home, it means "home" >> Lampung, not my room at Bandung). Singing along in my karaoke room, sleeping with my laptop, playing with my dog, watching local TV channels, or doing nothing, pleasantly.

12. I always bring an umbrella and a bottle of mineral water in my bag.

13. I don't like to use any perfume but always put kayuputih oil and caladine powder on my body after taking shower.

14. I HATE cilantro, durian, pickles, and raisins. They taste scarily disgusting.

15. I don't agree with "Diamonds are woman's best friend". It doesn't make sense. I admit diamond is luxurious, then why? If a monkey wears diamond, still it doesn't transform her to Jennifer Aniston, right?

16. My biggest fear is to lose someone I love.

17. I don't fall in love easily, I judge men from the personality not the appearance, certainly.

18. I have adequate knowledge about food and culinary. Never too much to get to know about that.

19. I would rather be in Africa than North Pole. I can't put up with cold weather. It freezes me to death.

20. I don't like shopping for fashion. Better to leave me at traditional markets and groceries. Love it!

21. I'm not a big city freak, I want to live in countryside thus I can ride my own bicycle to go to the nearest market.

22. I am both a night owl and morning person. Staying up till late is my habit. But I will kill myself if not breathing the balmy morning air.

23. I really want to join "Amazing Race Asia". It looks amazingly tough, tiring and exciting!

24. I love thick, black, not-too-sweet, coffee. But hardly ever going to Starbucks, CoffeeBean, or other franchise coffee shops. I prefer brewing my own coffee, smell the aroma from opening the coffee jar until tasting in my mouth. It's Lampung coffee, one of the best quality Indonesia has.

25. Don't you dare putting me in a rush time or panic situation. I can be mad in one second.

(j*z)

mistaking

2009-03-18T22:03:00.000-07:00

between my habbit,
my book,
my phone,
and my heart.

i can't cry
but these regretful tears urge fervently
i hold out.successfully.
i don't blame anyone but myself
something's totally wrong ruins my head

what on earth happen to me,
insanity.
i directly escape from this reality,
i (used to) have choices, usually well-chosen.

Stephen Covey talked too much about me
I know I already have them, at least I win my own victory.
not anymore,
i just want to go back, obviously..
*sigh*

(j*z)

about him

2009-03-17T05:47:00.000-07:00

you make my world so colourful

have you ever met someone
someone that changes you a lot
changes the way you think about life
the way you appraise yourself
the way you see rainbow through the rain
the way you find hidden happiness after those painful tears?

I did
meeting him was a fate
knowing more about him was a destiny
but falling in love with him, I had no control over

i love the way he touches my hair
the way he hugs me
the way he kisses his little sister
the way he takes care of his father

he is not perfect, not even close
he is just an ordinary man who doesn't work too much to impress me
not like the other men before

he is charming with his modesty
he is attractive with his foolishness
he is loving with his beneficence

i love him,
just the way he struggles to get the true happiness back

miss you so much, my dear:)
(j*z)

Kelapa Rapat Beach, Lampung

2009-03-15T19:40:00.000-07:00

me with bf

the hut and our supplies;)

so clean and peaceful

Lampung is my hometown. I came home for almost 4 weeks last December. Catched up with family, friends, and my bf. Now I'd love to share about an unexposed beach in Lampung Bay, Kelapa Rapat. about an hour driving from Tanjung Karang, capital city of Bandar Lampung. We can swim safely because it's not wavy at all, so calm, silent, and peaceful.

I went there with my bf, I think that's a really cool place to chill and chat a lot without any nuisance. We must pay to enter the beach. I forget how much, but it's affordable. Don't forget to pay Rp 2,000 to use the toliet (don't worry, it's clean and mantained enough). We rented a hut for Rp 20,000 (unlimited time) and had a long long conversation about everything. But suddenly it's raining, so we moved to the car and waiting for the sunshine to come up (What a great time,hehe).We spent almost the whole day there. One thing, don't forget to bring supplies, foodstuffs, etc because there's still no enough facilities.

>> romantic for couple, safe for children.. what an exquisite place to visit

(j*z)

(too) early morning

2009-03-15T11:33:00.000-07:00

it's 1.40 am
can not sleep

my head is full of something
something that I can't exactly figure out

actually.
I have a strong feeling about him
he is mine and i'm him since last January

I never regret about my decision
but sometimes you just feel that life is not fair
* I thought about that couple times before*

this is really unnecessary

(j*z)

hi everyone..

2009-03-15T10:28:00.000-07:00

This is a story about myself
you don't have to read it
you don't need to like it

i'm jessy
was born in 1988
just an ordinary university student majoring accounting
staying at Bandung since July 2006

love to dream, just like you
have lots of experience bout life
and love to share it

starting from now

(j*z)